Ok..the long awaited wed had arrived & the long awaited paper is finally OVER!! A summary of what i had gone through during the period of doing the paper & the process before the paper..lets start from the process..the night before i was really totally feeling dejected, horrible & helpless.It was like for a whole of like 6 hrs or so i couldn't absorb a single thing..i was in a state of total emergency at 12am-1am i started to feel so bad that for the 1st time in history of my life i actually cried due to studying..& i mean literally cry for like 1/2 hr it had been like more than 1/2 a year since i shed a tear..so i was feeling really bad..all negative thoughts came gushing into my mind..like what if i couldn't do the paper..what if i simply juz hand a blank script of paper so i got so worried till i was really sad! It took me 1 hr to finally decided to go to bed as theres seriously nth i could really do at that point of time..it was a tough decision as i would noramally study till 3-4am..its a habit that i have made that sleeping any bit earlier than this time would make me feel real guilty..anyway i went into the room & there were my sis questioning me out of concern as to why i looked "angry".Da jie was like..eh y u angry?? then i was ignoring her & she went again..are u angry with us..i continued to ignore..then er jie went..she is angry with herself..& there..my tears started flowing without me knowing once again.It was true that i was angry with myself for being so helpless & unproductive..so well..they tried to make me feel better although that didn't help much but i really did appreciated that.So i prayed & prayed & fell asleep till 5am..Finally there was sth coming out of it thanx god for he had answered me..till the actual paper..although it was as bad as usual all that i have concentrated on didn't came out however,i'm really glad that i didn't hand up a blank script of paper..& it really feels good to have such a HUGE burden being let off from my shoulders..felt totally relieved & happy although the paper was bad..moral of the story like what dear flabby grace said A few stepping stones will make u stronger every single time.Giving one a strong minded heart & soul =)
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